Fighting the Temptation

Not all my friends, even the rest of my family know, I’m a heavy smoker. I never smoke in front of my family, except my sister. Only a few of my friends know I’m a smoker.

I used to resist the smoker. I shouted to my friends, that they need to stop. Well, they already did. But I started since I could earn my own money.

Maybe I acted like saint. So that, they thought I’ve never done some sins. Well, not really.

I smoke because of my self willingness and I do it with consent.

First attempt, I tried my brother cigarettes. He doesn’t smoke. But he collected some boxes of cigarettes in his room. So I slipped that Djarum Black Tea cigarette stick between my lips. I like it tastes and the aroma of tobacco. The sweet taste that always be the characteristic.

I turned the lighter and smoked it out. Cough!

But I tried the day after and the next day.

I become more expert in smoking. And that brand is my favorite. The flavour is the greatest.

And well that how I started to be a smoker.

Everytime I got home, I smell like hell. I smell like an ashtray. My hair, my clothes, my bag, my breathe, my skin, my hands. It smell nice, but horrible.

My mom noticed that. She’s angry and told me to stop. But I can’t.

And til now. I’ve been struggling to stop. My friend gives me support. He wants to stop to accompany me. So we strive together LoL

At least I can hold my self not to smoke for a day or two days. I hope I can make great progress for the next step.

I have some not-really-pro-tips for who have been struggling to stop smoking.

• Sometimes I bite the clove just to substitute the cigarette.
• Think about the hospital cost if you get sick.
• Think about your mom and dad who get older and older.
• Drink hot ginger tea.
• Use the e-cig if you’re in urge to smoke.
• Don’t think about it.
• Never think, it’s cool to smoke. It’s an addict.
• If you’re in fucking urge, 1 cigs just enough.
• Count the money you spend on a month for cigs and think what thing you can but for that money.
• Read and write the health articles about the impact of cigs LoL (it makes me frustrated though)

This is for the sake of my health and money. Anyway, the hospital specialist cost is not cheap, though :) Let’s do!