Drowned.

I drowned my self

Sometimes I just don’t wanna be seen. I lose my self, not replying the text message. I disappear my self on social media. I just don’t wanna be seen.

Some part of myself says that I need a time to be relax. Yes, I am feeling that way. I feel a little bit relax.

Then I understand, my mind don’t allow me to be relax.

I don’t know, for this past 1 year, I’ve been struggling my self to be better me.

In a time I thought I was already good to walk on the new path, I didn’t realize I drowned my self again.

I knew I wasn’t alone. There my friends were ready to help anytime.

Help to regain, help to build the trust, help to accompany me to have a cup of coffee.

It wasn’t easy.

To beat the mind, to control my thought, to suppress the overthinking.

I learn how to be fearless, to be fierce and tender at the same time.

I regain my self.

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I believe that nature speaks to us in many ways through every creatures. We split and merge the moments, then compile the left ones. It’s never structured.

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Maria Amanda Inkiriwang

I believe that nature speaks to us in many ways through every creatures. We split and merge the moments, then compile the left ones. It’s never structured.